It’s hard for me to believe that on Monday I’ll be 17 weeks into this pregnancy. The weeks are just zooming by. So very soon, I’ll be half way through.
We’re all doing fine, as far as we can tell. I made some changes to my diet and have continued my exercise program, and my blood sugars are doing fine and my HbA1c came down from 6.5 to 5.8. That made everyone happy. I’m just staying the course, and hoping things continue to go well with the blood sugars. My OB doctor says I do not have gestational diabetes, which was what he was concerned about initially.
Back in November I had developed a rash on my upper legs. It was very bothersome and itched like poison. I would wake up in the nights from it itching so badly, and wouldn’t be able to sleep for a while due to the itching. My dermatologist PA told me it was just dry skin and to put lotion on it after showering. Well, I knew it wasn’t dry skin, but I followed her directions with no improvements. Then, I started slathering on the betamethasone cream that I was using on some other rashes. I was desperate! This had developed into big patches of large, raised welts. Finally, I called for another appointment with the dermatologist, insisting on seeing the dermatologist and not the PA. I got an appointment for the middle of April. Later, when I showed it to the OB doctor, he said it wasn’t just dry skin, and that he’d call the dermatologist and see what he could do. The dermatologist office called me that day with an appointment that very afternoon!! (A-ma-zing.) Anyway, after taking a biopsy and getting the results, lo and behold, it was something called a PUPPP rash (Pruritic Urticarial Papules and Plaques of Pregnancy). It affects about 1% of pregnant women, usually in their first pregnancy, usually with twins, and it’s usually worse in the last trimester. And, 70% of women who have a PUPPP rash have a boy. It surprised everyone that this was a PUPPP rash because none of them had seen it this early in a pregnancy. Note: I’m not usual. This isn’t my first pregnancy, there’s only one baby in there, and I’m not in my third trimester! So, I doubt this will have much bearing on if we have a boy or a girl! We’re all relieved it’s not a lupus rash, which was what my OB doctor was concerned about. Also, in the last several weeks, the rash has slowly faded out, and I’m not having any problems with it right now. Praise the Lord!
Right about the time I was at 15 weeks, I started to feel our baby move. I was surprised, because I didn’t feel the others that early. It’s a nice feeling, and I have paused to think at times that at some point in my life, I will never feel that fluttering inside me again. That’s a sad thought right now.
I am looking forward to our new baby coming. Even more so since my new niece was born on Thursday and I got to hold her briefly last evening. Paul and Hannah are really looking forward to our new baby coming too. They talk about it all the time.
I also know there will be a great big jolt to my life when this new baby arrives. In the last year, I’ve gotten pretty used to my children sleeping well at nights (well, for Hannah, that has taken a little hiatus right now, but we’re working on that). I’ve gotten used to just fixing one meal for all of us. I’ve gotten used to eating hot foods warm and at the same time everyone else is eating. I’ve gotten used to picking up and going to church or town or wherever without taking a couple hours to get ready, strategic planning so it’s in between feedings, etc. I’ve also gotten used to not having a lot of crying going on most of the time. I remember that babies cry a lot more than you think! What I am already getting used to is the lower energy level and getting tired often (or being tired nearly all the time). That set in at the beginning of the pregnancy, but it’s not quite as bad now in the second trimester as the first. I also know that if we weren’t having major construction going on all the time, I would get an afternoon nap on more days that just on Saturday.
But, when I look back over the time since Paul and Hannah were born, that first really tough year of life seems so short, so fleeting, and the hard times grow dimmer. Right now, Paul and Hannah are at such a fun, enjoyable stage. I am loving this time so much that I am looking forward to experiencing it again with our new baby. I am also so very much looking forward to watching Paul and Hannah enjoy our new baby. Even when we were visiting new Susannah for just a brief time, Hannah was so delighted to “hold” her, and was spontaneously and naturally petting her and rubbing her. Paul was commenting on her tiny feet and her tiny legs. They were just enthralled with her.
After Paul was born, it was hard. Just plain hard. He wasn’t an “easy” baby, and so much of everything was up-hill all the way, it seemed. I was expecting the same thing with Hannah, but everything was only half as hard with her. Sure, she was bigger when she was born and didn’t have some of the same hardships Paul had with being born a little early, but a lot of it was also that I wasn’t making 75 decisions every single day for the very first time and having to figure it all out. (Crying. Is he hungry? Does he have a burp? Does he just need to go to sleep? Is his diaper dirty? And all those check negative and he’s still crying and what am I doing wrong and why isn’t this working????) Somehow with Hannah I just knew what to do, and it just worked a whole lot better. Not that I always made the right decision, but everything was much easier. So, I am waiting to see if baby number three is even easier than baby number two!
Another thing, I’ve done my duty to reduce mass at the landfill. I’ve done all I need to try to be like my mom (and I’m not, so just give that up). I don’t plan to use cloth diapers unless we get absolutely destitute. I know it’s a crime. I know it’s a shame. I know it’s like throwing cash in the trash to use disposable diapers. But I’m going to be tired. As in tired, very tired. And that’s one thing that I’m giving up.
Well, I guess this is a pretty long commentary on 17 weeks. Now you know the scoop.
Oh, you can put your guess for a boy or a girl in the comments. We should find out which it is on April 2nd!